Some girl at work asked if I was grunge. Ew.

GAIS. MY ORDER FROM LUSH WILL BE HERE TOMORROW!!

After almost five years after the birth of my daughter, and almost three years after I left the father of my daughter; Tony, I’m finally considering filing for child support

Tony is not on the birth certificate. He was not there to hold my hand while I was giving birth, he was much more inclined to go to a party that night because we had had a fight the night before (my first day of senior high school). He has not given any kind of physical, emotional or financial support considering the well-being of our child. This outrages me in the worst ways that the mind can conceive.

I have been supported my daughter on my own since her birth, so in all aspects of the term, I am a single mother. I work a full-time job, along with my husband, Dan, that works a full-time job as well. But even after the bills are paid, even after Genevieve’s needs are met, you would think that it would incredibly embarrassing for Tony that another man is supporting his biological daughter more that he; the biological father is. Dan buys the groceries, he helps me with the bills, he helped me pick an elementary school for Genevieve to attend in the fall, he watches Genevieve while I’m at work, he plays with her, feeds her, clothes her, bathes her, buys her clothing, provides shelter and a secure and healthy atmosphere and environment for her as well. We do this a team, while Tony is free from all responsibilities besides picking her up for the weekend and dropping her off on Sunday night/Monday morning.

I don’t understand why a man wouldn’t want to be there for his daughter in every way necessary for our daughter. And Dan is an angel, a saint, and a REAL man for standing in and taking on the parental responsibilities that Tony should feel much obliged and obligated to tend to.

On the other hand, I don’t want Tony to have a say in the decisions that I make concerning our daughter, especially because he doesn’t seem to feel the need to.

I know that this post may or may not be a long rambling outburst, but I feel the need to put these words down for my piece of mind, and if anything this could end up being a personal document/testimony that I could bring to the courts if I do decide to go through with the child support procedure.

This has been a post.

What do you do when an old long-distance flame from 8 years ago randomly tells you that you’re beautiful, and then you realize that you still have un-fulfilled, lingering romantic feelings for him?

Help?!?!?